to my mom:
I feel cold and empty co'z your warmth is not here.. Why do you leave us alone? Don't you miss us at all?? Mom where are you now?
I didn't understand why all of a sudden you left us without any explanation..

Why did you want to go? Why? why??
I always pretend that i'm okay because your not with us, but deep inside my heart it hurts to pretend because the truth is i'm not really okay.. i feel empty..
did you know how much i hate you?? i hate you because you left us.. i hate you because your not with me in times when i need someone to share my problems, my heartaches, my happiness and someone to lean on when i'm crying.. i really hate you mom..
this is what i'm feeling right now.., wala akong maktang dahilan para mahalin ka, dahil ikaw na mismo ang gumawa ng way para malayo ang loob namin sayo..
to all my PSHIC family:
pasensya na ha at dito ko nilabas ang sama ng loob ko ngayon.. nahihirapan kasi ako minsan kung kikimkimin ko lang..

baka magkaroon ako ng heart problem.. hehe .. ayoko pang magkasakit.
sis fae, alam ko nman na anjan lang kayo mga friends jo eh.. kaya nga i'm so thankful and happy kasi atleast kahit wala ako mom.. i feel like somehow i'm not empty kasi alam ko anjan lang kayo..