Hi there pjot..
I hope ur doing well,after throw this away..
Well..since u brought this here..i cant avoid my eyes not to see it..and touch my heart,i hope this dont bring inconvinient to u..since we don't know each other personally..
Well,in my opinion..what u'v been through this day is so human..u want all to be perfect and hendle well by u because u take ur responsibility seriously..and the very kind of ur heart coz what u did to ur friend make u feel bad..that's so human
just take a deep breath and make ur self calm..do things one by one..and ur heart and mind knows what to do next..well,besides..we're woman can takes advantage and blame our hormones about our tampre sometimes rite..? ^^v
again..i hope u dont feel burden about this..^^